Other People's Kids

Emptiness

I had aliases picked out and was going to introduce the three new kids tonight with character posts. I've taken a real liking to them, and I was only waiting for them to be permanently placed here to begin relating the fun we've been having.

So the judge decides they should go home. Just like that, they don't even come back to the house.

Now, in this case I do understand why the judge decided what he did. The parents hadn't started drinking again and they were getting better about their issues...they just were showing warning signs that they wouldn't follow through much longer. Things like not going to AA meetings and the like.

But there was just something about these particular kids. It was a joy to come home and know they would be around. When either of the girls smiled, it lit up the room. The boy said the most foolish things. None of them seemed to have issues of the kind we've had to deal with from the others (though of course nobody is perfect and I'm sure things would have come out over time). I simply forgot to not fall in love with them instantly.

So yesterday we found out there would be no adoption imminent, today we lost our three foster kids, and tonight a friend of the family took "Jenny" for the night. Neither of us has anything to do but mope around the house and feel sorry for ourselves.

It's a bad night.

posted by Dan @ 3:57 PM